Friday, January 21, 2011

Unfaithful Kill

Suicide...well I may believe in it..or I might be against it. Either ways as I write this rather painful story about a guy who is now laying his head on his bed, with the cough syrup taking place in his body, I would like to tell you guys a story. Well its pretty much a sad story about a teenager who didn’t believe in himself, having fate ahead of faith and blood ahead of love. Ladies and gentlemen, reality or fiction please keep in mind, its from the heart of the lost love. A life where love was a denial syndrome. There was this guy that could not even catch a girl staring at him. A self- esteem as low as the Titanic has sunk. Well guys this ‘dude’ was a pretender, well like a phonny, someone who laughed hard outside, but had tears rolling down his cheeks everytime he is alone in his room.

A guy with an overgrown ambition, with dreams of making it big in the entertainment line, to make his friends and family proud and to prove to people that dreams do come true. Well as he looks back, he realizes that by achieving his dream by the age of 25 has been shattered, as his life will be taken in 2 hours time. A normal person who only has two hours to live, would probably be surrounding his loved ones. His girlfriend perhaps ? Well not this guy, a single guy who looks tough, but pretty soft in the inside would rather spend his time lying on his bed, with tears rolling and his flashbacks of memories. Then he stares at a picture with his mother when he was a kid, and tears begin pouring. He cries silently thinking about how much he loves his mum. He knows how heartbroken it would be for her when she wakes up in the morning only to realize her only son unconscious.

He then has a flashback on how his mum and dad brought him up. He began tearing up again but this time accompanied with a smile. A joy collides with his despair, thinking of the memory when his parent first thought him how to ride a bicycle, how his mum thought him how to read, and when he could not pronounce simple words as he was dyslectic. A strong bond had been shared between this kid and his mom. He idolised her, and loved her to death. This kid was someone strong hearted, willing to take any sort of criticism.

Depression hits this kid one day, and he realizes that his life was partially over. This kid had no one to talk to, well that is what he assumed. He preferred to keep his problems to himself, as he though no one could understand him. He looked at the time and yawned. He felt really sleepy. He smiled and looked at his mums picture one last time and whispered the words , “ I love you mum” and he fell asleep forever.

Friday, December 24, 2010

The Ferrari Year

“ Beep beep” “Omg its Chirstmas” “Wait the year is ending” “ Oh snap this year was fast”, those were the thoughts running through my head on Christmas day. Well I guess I might have triggered my ADD ( Attention Defesit Desorder)again. Well to the readers who are reading this so called college humour blog, which was made as an assignment at first, I would like to summarise my whole year in this article I am writting now, while laying on my bed. A little to personel, well I guess life is a boundary which is meant to be broken.

January 2010, well that was a lazy month for me, followed by February and soon to March. I must admit I did waste those three months with my friends, not to underline our friendship guys, I still love you guys. I felt I should have at least managed my time. Working out in the gym? Finding a job? Getting a girlfriend? Well I did really think about all these “activities” to utilize my time. The saying ‘an empty barrell makes the most noise” would be the suitable phrase for me, and I would admit that the regrets were felt mainly when I was about to rest my head on my bed at 5 or 6 am in the morning everyday during those three months.

Towards the end of March, my dad started asking me, when I wanted to start my Mass Communication Diploma. I had everything planned out since the age of 15 or 16. Going to Taylors had been a main priority for me, so it didnt have to be an hassle for me, like most of you guys who went for college hunting, me and my dad just drove to Taylors and registered and ate some Indian food if I am not mistaken. March 29th the exact day my college started and I was ready but kind of nervous, I had wanted to change my appearance, but then again I was raised up not to act to get attention but to be myself and get all attention I wanted. It wasnt a problem if people thought I was weird or messed up, at least I did turn a few frowns upside down.

First Sem was rather easy actually but I had decided to do what I do best, SLACK. Most people look at me as someone who should not have been in college, I have come to realize it but than again I am studying Communications and part of my future job requires me to talk and knowing that looks or musical talents arent part of my attributes at least I would have my mouth to take me through life. Readers please be matured I know what you are thinking when I said “my mouth to take me through life “. My lecturers were rather good I shall say, way different compared to schooling life, the dedication that had been planted in their heads really amazed me and I would forever look up to them. One thing I really wanted to change in college was hopping people would start calling me Sanjiv. Well most of my classmates did but other than that people still refered to me as “nigga”. Well I didnt mind it at first, than a thought just popped in my head, everyone gets to be called their own name, but mine isnt. Disrespectful aint it, well what could I do. Seeing myself in the mirror every day made me hate myself more, which I soon started drinking cough syrup. Depression was something that I have been trying to deal with since the age of 14. Jokes said by my friends to me always made me laugh back some were kind of mean but I still managed to put on a smile. People honestly, who ever who said jokes do not hurt is either lying or has a heart filled with hate. Everyone gets hurt from jokes directed to them but different people react differently. Some choose to keep it in so more frusration and problems can be avoided, some go into a rage because anger had been caused due to how sensitive the joke would have been. Overall I didnt mind jokes coming from friends cause I always knew they didnt mean it.

Sem 1 had finished like how David Blane made a rabbit disapear in a couple of seconds. Results were out and I was satisfied with my results, as I had managed to pass all my subjects. Sem 2 had started and I had realize that groups were already created. There were the “front seaters”, “midle tablers” and “backsiders”. Sem 2 was quite hectic, but I had really been motivated to do well and maybe imperssing people, showing them I could be book smart, but it was down to my College Research Method assignment was when my group and I messed up and got a 0 % over 30%. Well I know I should not be pointing fingers but, the reason of us getting a 0 for the assignment was due to the lack of initeative of our ‘so called leader’. Well her named would not be mentioned, due to the slight of respect I still have for her, but she was the main reason I had to work as hard as a bull being used by a Mexican imigrant to escape to America. I went into the examination hall for my Sem 2 final exams with confidence high as Bob Marley. The results came out and I managed to score -2As ,1B, 1+C and a +D. Which meant that C being the border line for passing meant I had failed my College Research Method and I had to repeat it again. Well, despite me working so hard this Sem, failure had occured once more in my life again.

As I reach the last paragraph of this dull article about life I would recap my year as, something forgetable. A year which I wasted, a year which was spend mainly on enjoying. I hope I’m ready for 2011 but shall I not be, the year would be another year the Ferrari drove again.

“ To be the best, you compete with the rest”
“ To beat the rest, you have to finish last”
- Sanjiv

P.S – Smoking Kills

Friday, May 14, 2010

Preperation for Midterm (part 2)

When someone ask me what are my thoughts about midterm exams and my preparations towards it, I always say the same thing which is, that I think midterm exams should not be applied in college and I am not prepared for my midterm exams. I hope that after I explain my reasons why I think midterm is rather time wasting and why I am never ready for it, you the readers would agree with me. I also hope that I do not offend any pro midterm exams people who read my blog as I do not mean to insult you. As I write this blog I’m writing this according to how I feel about midterm exams.

Firstly I would like to explain what I think about midterm exams. I find it rather harsh that college students have to go through midterm exams as we have already go through it at school. Having midterm exams in school is understandable because teachers in school have to access students on the rate we are going. Having midterm exams in college is simply a waste of time because we college students are moving towards the adult hood and I think midterm is a way of showing where we stand in the academic level in a certain subject.

As a college student we the students should only be given final exams because we need more time to study and do our revision. Having it right after the first half of a course is really hectic for students who still have not adjusted themselves to the college lifestyle. Midterm also causes most students to do last minute studying thus to stay up until wee hours studying and trying to get the very last information into the brain. What ever that comes out in the midterm exams would come out in the final exams in the end and it makes no different why must be do a midterm exam when we are going to do the same question again during the final exams.

As about my preparation towards my final exam I think that I am never ready for any papers. May it be when I was in school or in college I always tend to do last minute studying no matter what. It is a habit I picked up and it is really hard to get rid of and I have since been doing all my preparation two to three days before my exams start. I know that doing last minute studying is not that good and should not be practiced by the younger generations who are reading this, but it always tends to work for me. I believe that students who do last minute studying always tend to do well, as the notes that were studied 5 hours before the exams are still fresh in their mind.

This has been all that I am able to talk about my preparation towards the midterm exams. Either how I think of it or how my preparation towards it, I know that no matter what I would still have to sit and I would have to do the last minute mugging by myself.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Preperation for midterm (Part 1)

It has only been a month and a half since college begun for me and I have already my midterm exams waiting for me next week. The feeling of just starting fresh in college has been long gone, but it still feels just like yesterday when I first started college. There was no more play time and a lot of people always say that when someone is new to college they are bound to suffer from culture shock.

As usual I am not ready for my midterm exams as I have been slacking the whole time in class and not paying any attention when the lecturer is teaching as I concentrate more when I hear my friends talking. I know that I need to do some really hardcore last minute studying I plan on at least passing my midterm exams. I know all the notes that the lecturer has given must be read and understood by me. I have realize that it is not school anymore and I should not be praying for miracles anymore but start managing my time other than going out and enjoying my college lifestyle.

In my opinion I think that the midterm as come a little bit too fast as I’m just fresh out of school and I’m still in my honeymoon world. Having a midterm after a month and a half in college is too fast as it gives me limited time to get adjusted to the college lifestyle. I think that the midterm exams is going to be tough as I do not even know what is coming out and I’m forced to rely on friends who have been paying attention in class to help me out.

Since its kind off too late for me to score an A in my papers I am looking on trying my best in at least getting B’s or C’s in my paper. I think what I should do is start doing questions after questions hopping that I can at least get some of this information in my brains. I also think that I should mute my friend from my life for at least this whole week until I get through my papers so that I can concentrate more. I also have to draw up a schedule to study for my midterm papers so that I can divide my time equally for all the papers so that I am able to pay equally same attention for all the other papers.

This is all that I can say about how I am going to prepare for my midterm as I have no other ways of preparing for my midterm. I know that I need all the hope in the world to pass my midterm exams as I know it is impossible, but as my mum says “its not over until the fat lady sings” which means that do not give up until you are too sure, thus I would not give up in myself and believe that I could at least score B’s or C’s.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Sports or Music (Music)

After speaking on sports in my previous post, I have decided to write about music this time since I was given the choice between music and sports. In everyone’s daily life, music is something that everyone listens to. If there is someone in this planet who does not listen to music, it would be either he or she lived in the jungle for their whole life or they might be captured by underground monster. Music industry is one of the highest money making “scheme” ever in the economy. Most musician are not affected by the economic downturn because they are protected by contracts which liable them to their direct income.

In this world there are so many types and genres of music that it is very hard to keep count of. There are reggae, rap, blues, rock, metal, country and so much more. Different people have different taste in music. Some prefer having a loud noise that pumps the heart to the core and some prefer having a cooling beat that relaxes their heart.

One thing that the types of music that have in common is that, all of them are able to release stress. People look at rap as a symbol of violence, but when the lyrics are actually read and the inner meaning is found there is a different side of rap. There have been people who said that metal music is bad and it goes against religion, but then again most of metal songs are about love.

There is also reggae music where most people say that reggae is all about marijuana. Most people miss out the fact that reggae is about the low tempo and slow instrumental. Reggae music is sung with so much of passion in it and there are a lot of moral values that can be learned from reggae. Like for an example Bob Marley’s hit song Is This Love, where many people thought the song was referring to marijuana. The song was actually referring to love.

Rap songs have proved its worth in the music industry, beating out the other entire genre. Rap which became more hardcore when rappers such as Tupac Shakur, Notorious B.I.G, Suga, 50 cent, Eminem and Snoop dogg. Even though there are still criticism over rap, that rap is bad for children and it would create more and more violent, people still fail to realize that what is being rapped is not fake but the truth of the untold world that the government might be trying to cover up.

People may criticize the different types of genre’s all day long, day or night but it is a well known fact that becoming someone who creates music that pleases others is not something that is as easy as eating left over pizza’s, but it is something that actually turns the world around. Music is always going to be music, may it be pop, rock, blues, country, hip hop, rNb, rap, metal or what so ever, they all have the same motive, which is to entertain people.


Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Sports or Music (sports)

Picking between sports and music would be one of the hardest decisions that I would have to make as sports and music are both in my interest caliber. But since I have to write two posts on this topic I would write choose sports first. Growing up as a kid, I always remembered my dad telling me that, playing sports could make me fit. A lot of people do not know that running around a field is also a sport. Most people only look at commercial sports as real sports.

Sports have a lot of beneficial to us as it can help us lose weight. Our countries obesity rate is so high that more and more people are going into operation such as liposuction. Playing sports such football, hockey or basketball are only a few of sports that I have choose to name as there are so many more that would take me the whole night to list down.

People don’t know that sports are another source of releasing stress. Due to the economic downturn recently more and more people have got into drugs. A walk in a park for 30 minutes is also known as a form of sport and could reduce a person’s stress and would be keeping a person away from sports. Playing sports could also lead a healthy lifestyle for youths now days, which are easy influence by peers to get into negative culture such as partying, drinking, using drugs or smoking.

Sports could lead to professionalism. A lot of people who have been playing a certain sports as a hobby have gone into becoming a professional. For an example former England football team captain David Beckham started football only thinking of playing it as a passion and he soon became a professional. Someone who has the passion in playing sports could really make it big if potential and interest plays a main role in he or she’s life.

Getting into sports could also make a person not become a couch potato. A lot of people are now just watching television in the evening, when they should be outside sweating and burning calories. A lot of people have said that playing sports is the only way a person can tackle laziness. There are some people who have stated that sports should be played by people who are only good at it. This is by far the most ignorant statement a person could give. Sports are something where even if someone is disabled, he or she could still play. Sports should be played with fun in the mind and not a competitive mind set when it is played for fun.

These are all the points that I can elaborate about sports. My final conclusion is that sports is not only a form of activity anymore but it is now a main part in someone’s life and it is like a basic need in someone’s life. Sports should be done with a smile on a face not something done forcefully.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Taylors Lakeside Campus (part 2)

After elaborating about all the positives in Lake Side Campus, I this it is fair that I also write about the negatives in the Lake Side Campus. Where there is good there is always bad as noting is perfect. I also hope that I would not be putting my “Taylorian” life in jeopardy by writing the negatives of the lake side campus.

First I would like to say that the campus was built in such a rush that some classrooms have not been painted yet and the pipes that are shown out from the ceiling is not a good way of promoting a classy college. In my opinion I think that the contactors rush to build this campus because time had its limit with them. My main prove is that the commercial buildings have not been built yet and it had been predicted to be finished in year 2011.

There is also the bad smell of cow “poop” which makes the campus smell like a farm. Why does a college which cost millions and millions of dollars to build have cows in its area? Why didn’t Taylors College just buy over the land? These are the common question asked by students who are still confused why the campus smells like cows feces.

Taylors Lake Side Campus is a non smoking campus which has made a quite large part of the students angry as why don’t they at least have a few smoking “pots” where students who are on their breaks after a long and stressful day of class. I have been caught smoking by the guards numerous times until; I don’t care anymore as it doesn’t scare me if they even threaten to kick me out from the campus.

The food in the campus has shocked a lot of student’s even lectures. Rm4 for a sandwich with a thin slice cheese and a quarter of an egg is not a good deal to students. I would not mine paying any amount of money for food, but it must at least be worth eating and I think that a prestige campus as Taylors College should at least lower down its food price as most of the students are not working.

Taylors Lake Side Campus has also limited parking spaces and if it passes a certain time limit, one must park really far from the campus. It sometimes takes me around 15 minutes just to walk to my class and I would be mark absent by my lecture.

This has been all the negatives in Taylors Lake Side College. I do not mind studying here but if given a choice to make changes I would definitely make a drastic change in this campus. Firstly abolishing the no smoking rule and creating rooms where students can smoke. Secondly I would buy over the cow farm and modify it into a parking lot so student can fine more parking. The smell of cow’s you know what would also go away and the fresh smell of oxygen can finally be smelled.